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Friday, April 05, 2013


An attempt to translate "Varuvaanillarumee" from "Manichitrathazhu"

Apologies to all lovers of this poem and the language Malayalam.

I have tried hard but fail before the fact that the beauty of a language can never be translated into another.

"Varuvaanillarumee" from the Malayalam movie "Manichitrathazhu is an amazing poem which has interpreted loneliness like none other I have read or heard.

I am lucky to know Malayalam and to at least partly understand the poet's classical creation.


I know there is no one to come my way
Yet I await a beloveds arrival
I know both would remain my imagination
yet I desire- the beloved and his arrival

 The Spring lost its way many times
to the branches of a Mango tree that never bloomed;
And then,for the abandoned one
the seasons changed,adorning it
with blossoms of the spring.

I know there is no one to come this abandoned path
yet everyday,I walk up to the gate
lay my eyes on the path,awaiting a beloveds arrival
I know both are my imaginations
yet I desire- the beloved and his arrival

There is no one with a promise to comeback
yet in hope I keep my door ajar
A beloved is to come my way
In vain I desire- the beloved and his arrival

Once when the time stood still
I heard footsteps at the gate
I felt like the moment had brought me the spring
the spring that would never maroon me 
When I eagerly ran up to look
into the long narrow path to the gate
Someone,who had mistakenly taken the path
was returning half way to me
On the path to me,he was returning halfway 


Varuvanillarumeng oru naalu mee vazhi-
-kkariyaam athennalumennum
Priyamulloralaro varuvanudennu njaan
Veruthe mohikkumallo
Ennum veruthe mohikkumallo

Palavattom pookalam vazhithetti poyitta-
-gorunalum pookkamangombil
athinayi mathramayoruneram rithumaari

Varuvanillarumee vijanamameevazhi-
-kkariyaam athennalumennum
padivaathilolam chennakalathavazhiyake
mizhipaaki nilkarundallo
mizhipaaki nilkarundallo
Priyamulloralaro varumennu njaanennum
Veruthe mohikkumallo

Varummennu chollippirinjupoyillarum
Ariyam athennalumennum
Pathivaayi njaanente padivathilenthino
Pakuthiye chaararullo
Priyamulloralaro varuvanudennu njaan
Veruthe mohikkumallo

Ninayatha nerathen padivaathilil oru
Padavinyasam kettapole
Varavaayalorunaalum piryiathen madhumasam
Oru mathra konduvannalo
Innu orumathra konduvannengo
Kothiyode odichennakalathavazhiyilekki-
-rukannum neetunna neram
vazhithetti vannaro pakuthikkuvachente
vazhiye thirichu pokunnu
ente vazhiye thirichupokunnu
ente vazhiye thirichupokunnu


Sunday, September 30, 2012

Of its own accord

It is hard to live with a mind,
a mind that thinks of its own accord.
It pauses when I tell it not to mind.
Then it rushes,snapping all the cords.

It is hard to live with a heart,
a heart that cries aloud.
It double-breathes when I tell it to keep low,
then bursts louder with the next blow.

It is hard to live with a soul,
a soul that looks from within.
It screams and I plead it to ignore.
It turns me in and pushes me out

It is hard to live with a parted heart,
a heart that is now one with another.
The longing hurts,dwarfs the distractions
Love sometimes proves truer than it seems

Thursday, May 20, 2010

The journey into you.

One month and a day with you,
I just started the journey into you.
Rivers,pebbles,sand,I feel it all,
think of you and I forget it all.

Wonder if I have been here always
feel my soul and guide me in.
I hold you close,realise
its more a journey within.

Monday, May 17, 2010

The reality will be bliss

Sometimes I find myself smiling,
on streets unknown,thorough people unseen.
I shake myself awake,look around,realise
reality is miserable without you in it
all i want to live is you.

I remember you cry,I smile
I was wrong then,I really was
but smile is still on me
Cant help you were so sweet,
you really were.

The journey has just begun,
I just have to travel to you,
then i end, we begin,
I will hold you close,kiss you in,
and the reality will be bliss.

"to my lovely wife Jisha"

Sunday, November 01, 2009

One-Night Stand

Now, when I hold you near
There is something that turns into fear
Will this be a one-night stand?
Will I be left to unlearn and understand?

I squeal, move a bit, I try
Flutter my wings, sing my lips dry
Unspeakable, but wouldn't call it pain
If you were a season, would you rain?

It's a picture of yours that I find
Take a look, hide, and make no sound
Won’t lie there watching you pack
Kiss the bliss, step out , walk back.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Just in case you remember me

Just in case you remember me
remember me,for the love in me
for the first kiss I blew at you
it touched your hand,you let it go
For the Sunday prayer,the midnight stroll
for all the antics,that didnt get the glimple

Just in case you remember me
remember me,for the love in me

may be I missed to read trambling lips
belive me dear,I treambled no less
I walked away, but did turn around
the hurt was hard,you couldn't be around

Just in case you remember me
remember me,for the love in me